Timothy White explores the journey of his father, an evangelical pastor, as he reconciles his faith with the fact that his son is gay. Through excerpts from the father’s journals, White shows how personal connections can reshape deeply held beliefs and foster inclusivity. “He took stock of what really mattered to him at his core.” he writes, “And then he reshaped his beliefs, practices and work around that …”
But some of his fears came from a deeper place, beyond simple stereotypes or concern. He was afraid that something within me might, in his words above, be stronger than God. That it would unmoor him from the evangelical moral foundation upon which he’d spent decades building his life and career. And in some ways, he wouldn’t be wrong.
To feel the bedrock of your theology shifting might sound abstract, but it’s almost impossible to underestimate the terror it brings for someone who has made this their whole life.